“Be bold, be brave enough to be your true self.” ~ Queen Latifah
The Painful Rupture from your true self
All I ever wanted was to be Loved – to be Loved and to be Seen. I wanted to be loved by my father, and I wanted to be Seen by all the people who were important to me. But for a reason unknown to me, my father never gave me the love I so desperately wished for, and the people around me never seemed to notice me.
“Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat.” ~ Mother Teresa
Humans do that to each other – they pass by one other as though they don’t even exist, and they act as if the people around them don’t matter at all.
They passed by me as well – both family and strangers, acting as though I didn’t matter, and pretending I wasn’t even there.
“We are all so much together, but we are all dying of loneliness.” ~ Albert Schweitzer
I was a small person who carried around with her a pain bigger than she was.
But I never told anyone I was broken. I kept it all to myself.
I was young and innocent, and in my innocence, I assumed that I was supposed to hold all that pain in me and keep it all to myself.
And I did just that.
I walked around carrying the unhealed pain of my past for years and years, pretending I was all right.
But I wasn’t.
“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” ~ Maya Angelou
I was so hungry for love. So thirsty for attention. And so eager to be Seen.
Through every word that came out of my mouth, every gesture, and every little thing I did, I was constantly shouting:
Tell me I’m worthy.
Tell me I am enough.
I wanted the world to See me. To tell me that I was worthy. To make me feel loved.
I needed them to validate my worth.
The Return to Your True Self
“Self-worth comes from one thing – thinking that you are worthy.” ~ Wayne Dyer
After many years of subtle, and not so subtle begging, the world began to give me what I was craving for. It began to give me love, validation, approval, and attention. And it began to tell me that who I was important and that my existence mattered quite a lot.
But that didn’t make me happy. On the contrary. It made me feel angry!
I felt angry and frustrated because deep down inside I had always known that I was valuable. But the world never bothered to see that.
I never bothered to See it!
The world we live in is toxic.
It is toxic for the unhealthy beliefs it bestowed us with, and it is toxic for tricking us into thinking that without its validation and approval, we are nothing.
But we are not, nothing. We are everything!
Marianne Williamson wasn’t kidding when she said that we are powerful beyond measure.
We truly are!
We are One with the Unconditional Love that gave life to us all. And we are One with the Power that created the whole universe.
“You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anybody.” ~ Maya Angelou
I know you think you need others to give you permission to step into your power and be your True Self. But you, my darling, need permission from no one.
You are the only one in charge of your own life – your worth and your value are determined by You!
As Rumi said it so beautifully,
“Everything in the universe is within you. Ask all from yourself.” ~ Rumi
All that you need is already within.
All the Love you need – it’s in you!
All the Courage, Power, and Confidence you long for – it’s in you!
All the Strength, Creativity, Beauty, and Purpose you seek outside yourself – it’s in you!
It’s all in you!
So ask all from your true self.
What about you? When will you begin the journey back to your True Self?