The 30 Day Journey to Finding My Higher Self
Nobody else knows your reason for being. You do. Your bliss guides you to it. When you follow your bliss, when you follow your path to joy, your conversation is of joy, your feelings are of joy — you’re right on the path of that which you intended when you came forth into this physical body. ~Abraham Hicks
Life can be tricky at times and if you don’t keep your eyes wide open and if you don’t pay close attention to what your heart is trying to communicate to you, chances are that your happiness level will go down you will have little or no peace at all.
It is so easy to step away from yourself and start living life on auto pilot, so easy to lose yourself and so challenging to find the way back to who you once were, don’t you agree?
Me personally, I got to a point where I feel like the life I am now living is no longer the life I want to be living. Not that there is something wrong with it is just that it no longer fits me.
It did at one point (and I am grateful for all the wonderful things that happend to me and all the amazing people I met) but not anymore and because of that I feel a bit lost, confused and I have no idea what am I supposed to do next. Or maybe I do but I pretend not to know for some reason unknown to me.
I felt like this a few years ago and and something that at that time looked like total chaos to me, it later on turned out to be the best thing that ever happen to me so hopefully the same will happen here.
Because of that, I have learned to trust more and doubt less, to see challenges as blessings in disguise and to detach from the outcome.
I have learned to let go of this idea of how things should be and to simply allow and embrace what life is offering me in every moment with little or no judgment at all.
I have learned to listen to my heart and intuition, to trust my inner gps and to go wherever it wants me to go, even if it doesn’t make any sense to my rational mind.
As years went by, me and my intuition became really good friends and I have learned to trust that it will always guide me in the right direction, it will always take me where I need to be not where I think I have to be. This way I got to places I have never dreamed of going and have also understood how much I know and how much I have to offer.
Even though I know these things and even though I know my intuition has my best interest at hand, I still choose to ignore it from time to time and because of that I ended up feeling the way I do, lost, confused, with very little clarity of what I want to do…
I guess I like to rebel from time to time and to experience the contrast of life some more but now I am ready to go back to following my heart and see where it will take me.
There are no choices that are really a detour that will take you far from where you’re wanting to be — because your Inner Being is always guiding you to the next, and the next, and the next. So don’t be concerned that you may make a fatal choice, because there aren’t any of those. You are always finding your balance. It’s a never ending process. ~Abraham Hicks
Recently, my inner gps asked me to leave, to go away for a month, away from work, away from all the noise that surrounds me on a daily basis and to trust that by doing so I will bring my real Self back to life.
Indonesia and Thailand came to mind and in one of these places, or both, is where I will need to do some soul searching and work on finishing my book.
Well, it makes no sense for my rational mind why these 2 countries but I will go along with it and trust that I will be able to connect the dots there.
I am going to Bali tomorrow morning, feeling excited and scared at the same time, not knowing what to expect, not knowing why exactly Bali and not knowing whether I will spend one full month there or go to Thailand also.
I bought a one way ticket to Bali for now and I will see later what will happen and where will my inner gps, my heart and intuition take me:)
I guess the Universe wants me to get out of my comfort zone, it wants me to do something I have never done before, it wants me to step into the unknown and embrace change…
I have been resisting change for so long and no wonder I was feeling the way I did and still do – anxious, moody, confused, lost…
And what’s interesting is also haven’t felt like writing anymore and writing is one of the things I love the most.
When you stop doing the things you love the most, that’s when you can know for sure that something is wrong and you need to stop what you’re doing and start contemplating your life.
When I do the things I love, I am happy. I feel love present within me and I can’t help but put this love out there into the world through my actions and behaviours.
When I stop doing the things I love, I feel empty, lost and confused and things start to go wrong.
So I’m thinking that maybe when you are living your life on purpose, when you work with the love that is present within you, when you work with your unique gifts and talents, you feel blissful, loved and loving and when you don’t life gets a bit messy and your happiness level goes down.
It’s funny how much writing helps me to discover and understand myself but since I haven’t been writing that much lately, I kind of got lost…
If you ever get lost, if unease, stress, anxiety and confusion enter your life, don’t be afraid to look beyond the surface and find out the root cause of your unhappiness
It might not be easy and it might not be a pleasant image but if we don’t take the time to do it and if we don’t find the courage to look beyond the surface, chances are that we will step further and further away from our true Self and the way back will not be an easy and smooth one.
Better to do it sooner than later and that’s exactly what I am planning to do.
I promise to share more about my journey with you both here and on facebook and hopefully I will come back feeling more like my Higher Self and less like my Personal Self
If you have ever experience anything or if you have anything else you would like to share, feel free to do so by leaving your comment bellow or by posting your comment on the PurposeFairy Facebook Page :)
With all my love,
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